What Hold Me Right’s Danijela Steinfeld learned through documenting sexual assault

Steinfeld didn’t set out to share her own experience in the film. The project began as a way for her to connect survivors to empower them not to suffer in silence alone, like she had done.

When she left Serbia, she says she had been at the height of her acting career and that her familiar face just vanished from magazines, movies and Serbian public life, with no explanation — not even to her family or friends. She publicly shared the reason she left only two years ago.

Arriving in the US, Steinfeld says she was severely traumatized and unable to speak about her experience, trying instead to start a new life. But it wasn’t as simple as just moving away from the scene of the crime.

She explains how friends and therapy slowly helped her stitch bits of herself back together and made her realize that just talking about what had happened was helpful. And as she connected with other survivors through organizations like RAINN (the Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network), she started to understand how similar their experiences of suffering shame and silence were, despite the assault or crimes being very different.
While each survivor’s experience is unique, the Washington Coalition of Sexual Assault Programs lists many common short- and long-term reactions victims often experience, including shame, guilt, denial, anxiety and depression.

That’s what sparked the idea for Steinfeld’s’ project. But as she interviewed the people featured in the film — including a wife raped by her husband, a nurse who had to use a rape kit on herself, a man who says he was raped at a party when he was 13 — and confronted some of the perpetrators about whether they now felt remorse or even admitted what they had done had been a crime, she realized that in order to fully heal, she too had to speak out in order to move on.

The result is a powerful 74-minute documentary that focuses on how sexual assault can affect a person’s life for years, but also how hard it can still be for people — both male and female — to get their voices heard, even in today’s post #MeToo era.

Following her experience, Steinfeld shared four lessons she has learned on what to do in the wake of an assault — whether it happened to you, or someone you know.

It’s not your fault

“No matter how it happened, no matter your gender, sex, age, creed, no matter your state of consciousness, no matter what your actions or lack of actions were, IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT,” she says.

“You are obsessing now with the question: what could have been done differently? The truth is not much. Perpetrators prey on you by earning your trust and coercing you to a space where they can commit the crime. You couldn’t have known their intentions. The faster you learn to understand it wasn’t your fault, the better you’ll heal.”

Find a person you trust

“Find a person you trust — someone you know who won’t judge you or force you to do anything you would not like to do — if possible BEFORE you seek medical attention and report the crime to authorities,” Steinfeld says.

She adds that experiences with law and medical personnel can also be traumatizing so it’s helpful to have trusted support when reporting the crime.

“Make sure you trust in someone who will be by your side no matter what. That might mean telling your family what happened and seeking their love and support. Don’t worry now about crushing their heart with your disclosure of the crime you managed to survive.They may feel helpless, but you need them right now more than I can put in words.If you don’t have such a person, find us, victims’ advocates, we will be there for you. , but it’s so true — find us online! YOU’RE NOT ALONE.”

have patience with yourself

“You might feel self-destructive: you might hate yourself for a long time, you might want to harm yourself, abuse alcohol or substances to make yourself feel more miserable. Have patience with your state of shock and your healing,” she says.

“The journey from victim to victor could be a very long way to go. Victory is when you are whole again, when you can trust your judgment again, victory is when what has happened has no power over you anymore. The fast track to that freedom is patience and kindness towards yourself.”

She explains that by doing this you will eventually be able to talk about what has happened and says she learned that “speaking was healing for all the heroes that came forward after surviving sexual trauma.”

Ask loved ones to be supportive

When abuse survivors share what has happened to them, it might be difficult for loved ones to know how to respond, Steinfeld says. But their response “can be crucial” in helping people feel empowered to seek support.

She believes supportive responses can also reduce the risk of developing post-traumatic stress and says that it’s important for loved ones to express genuine sympathy and avoid any judgment or questions that assert that somehow a survivor’s actions are to blame for what happened (ie What were you wearing? How much did you have to drink? Why did you take that route home?).

“We live in a culture that doesn’t understand survivors of sexual violence. There is no right or wrong way to respond to trauma,” she says, concluding that having validation and support can go a long way in helping someone feel safe and ask forsupport.

If you have experienced sexual assault or trauma and are looking for help, you can find a list of resources here.

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Although she was the first woman to reach the peak of Mount Everest, Junko Tabei preferred to be known as the 36th person to achieve this feat.

She discovered her passion for climbing at the age of 10 during a class trip to Mount Nasu and Mount Chausu. At the time, in Japan, only men climbed mountains. After graduating from Showa Women’s University, Tabei followed her passion to climb and joined various men’s climbing clubs.

To encourage more women to pursue passions for climbing, she co-founded Joshi-Tohan (Ladies Climbing Club of Japan) in 1969 and, the following year, Tabei and club member Hiroko Hirakawa made history on an expedition to Annapurna III in Nepal, one of the most challenging climbs in the world, becoming the first women to scale the peak.

Tabei then set her sights on Everest. In 1975, along with 14 other women under the auspices of Japanese Women’s Everest Expedition, she began the ascent. Due to lack of oxygen bottles, Tabei was the only member of the climbing team who could climb the final summit, making her the first woman to reach the top of the world’s highest peak.

She went on to climb the highest mountains on each continent, known as the Seven Summits challenge, and was again the first woman to do so.

Born in Fukushima as Junko Ishibashi, Tabei was a teacher, author and World War II survivor. She married Masanobu Tabei, a fellow mountaineer, in 1959.

Her life was one of courage and determination not only making a name in a male-dominated field but also challenging cultural stereotypes about women. She died from cancer in 2016.

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